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CinnamonGirl

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I’m a long time lurker here and loved the information I’ve gotten from the site and just joined today because my heart is broken. I have two Leos, both females and have them in separate tanks because they did not get along. We got Cinnamon girl, a tangerine Leo, last year from a local pet shop that rescued her from someone. She was about 2 years old and looked like she’s had gotten into a scrap or two before because one eyelid was a little scratched and looked like it healed up. So she’s always been a little skittish and not super social. She didn’t like to be misted, baths or to be handled very much. She was a great eater, could hunt crickets with the best of them and we loved her very much. As time went on she warmed up to us more and more.

Last month my son was getting her out of her tank when she leaped from his hand onto the hardwood floor about 3 feet below. She then appeared to have a seizure and went limp. Her jaw was crooked, bleeding and we suspected the worst. She lay in the warmth of my hand and I stroked her for a while and she slowly seemed to “wake up”. We took her to the vet and they confirmed the broken jaw. She seemed to have limited use of her back legs as well and seemed a little lethargic but this was getting better as time went on.

Over the next 4 weeks we hand fed her with some soupy protein stuff from the vet, administered pain meds and liquid calcium to Cinnamon Girl. Her personality was slowly coming back and she stopped losing weight so fast. We followed up with trips to the vet and they confirmed she was looking better and to keep doing whatever we had been doing. She seemed to enjoy the baths we were giving her and loved to just sit in the palm of our hands and fall asleep. She seemed sweeter than she had ever been. Her jaw was healing up nicely and although it was still crooked she could open & close it without any obvious difficultly.

Yesterday morning I checked on her and she was on the cool side of the tank. The heat lamp was still off this early and this was odd of her to be on the cool side. I took a closer look and she wasn’t moving. I picked her up to move her to the warming rock and found she must have passed during the night. I was horrified! I had bonded so close to this poor little gecko over the last year and especially over the last month with our feedings and baths. It looked like she had started to shed and passed on in the middle of a difficult shed. Sorry for the long first post but I am more heartbroken than I even know how to say! She was so sweet and I feel like we failed her. I don’t know what happened.
 

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acpart

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I'm so sorry for your loss. Sometimes it's a collection of small things and something just pushes them over the edge. I've had an occasional gecko stop eating and waste away (it wasn't crypto) and an occasional one just be dead suddenly. It's never easy. At least you gave her the attention and care she deserved for as long as you could.

Aliza
 

jamie674

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So sorry to hear this! It sounds like you did what you could and gave her love and care for as long as you had her.
Hugs.
 

Elizabeth Freer

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Very sorry to read of Cinnamon Girl's passing. It is hard to lose any family member. :sad: Huge heartaches, for sure.

May I ask how your other female leo is faring, especially with regards to supplements (calcium, vitamin D3, and all)?
 

CinnamonGirl

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Very sorry to read of Cinnamon Girl's passing. It is hard to lose any family member. :sad: Huge heartaches, for sure.

May I ask how your other female leo is faring, especially with regards to supplements (calcium, vitamin D3, and all)?

The other Leo is doing great! Nice tone, plump tail and quite the social personality. They were in separate tanks because the other Leo use to bully Cinnamon so we separated them.

They get crickets & mealworms get dusted with calcium (w/D3) and she always has calicum w/o D3 in the tank with them.

I removed the tank from the room over the weekend and continued to cry my eyes out! The last month when I was hand-feeding her she was so sweet! She loved to be stroked on her back and after feeding her (she didn't like the hand-feeding) I'd calm her down and tell her it's going to be ok. It makes it even harder because she was a rescue and I really thought she'd be ok. :'( I hope wherever she is she's ok and eating all the crickets & meal worms she can!
 

Elizabeth Freer

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The other Leo is doing great! Nice tone, plump tail and quite the social personality. They were in separate tanks because the other Leo use to bully Cinnamon so we separated them.

They get crickets & mealworms get dusted with calcium (w/D3) and she always has calicum w/o D3 in the tank with them.

I removed the tank from the room over the weekend and continued to cry my eyes out! The last month when I was hand-feeding her she was so sweet! She loved to be stroked on her back and after feeding her (she didn't like the hand-feeding) I'd calm her down and tell her it's going to be ok. It makes it even harder because she was a rescue and I really thought she'd be ok. :'( I hope wherever she is she's ok and eating all the crickets & meal worms she can!

Nice to hear that your other leo is doing well. :D

Sorry for your pain.

I'm sure Cinnamon is frolicking in a Fiddlers' Green of sorts. By the way, did you choose your GU user name from Neil Young's song?
 

CinnamonGirl

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Nice to hear that your other leo is doing well. :D

Sorry for your pain.

I'm sure Cinnamon is frolicking in a Fiddlers' Green of sorts. By the way, did you choose your GU user name from Neil Young's song?

Yes I did. I was so distrought the day Cinnamon passed away...I did everything I could for her and thought she was looking better. I feel so bad I was unable to save her! I prayed for a "sign" that she was ok, wherever she was. A few seconds later we were driving to get crickets for the other leo and Neil Young was on the radio playing "Harvest Moon" and without a thought I told my son this is the same guy that sings "Cinnamon Girl". Wow...Cinnamon Girl!! Right at that moment, in a weird sort of way I took that as a sign that Cinnamon was saying just that...she's ok and thanks for trying to help her as much as she did. I never really thought much about pet heaven before but I was praying it's for real now.

I'm sure we'll get another leo but it's too soon. I can't bear to think about it let alone look at another tangerine.

Thanks for listening to me go on & on. :(
 

iluvfoals

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I'm so sorry for Cinnamon Girl's passing on. But she's in a good place now. You gave her all you could, and that's all you could have done. :) It's hard to get through that, but you have to go through hardships sometimes, and you did your best for her, we all know that. Maybe if you get another tangerine it would help. It would be painful to remember her, but if you did, you could also remember how great she was and all the good times, and that leo could grow up to be loved just as Cinnamon Girl. Stay strong.
 

Saskia

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I am sorry for your loss, I do leo rescue and I have lost a few of them that got to me too late, and even as I have only had them for little time (a few days to a few weeks) I know how much it hurts to loose one of theese little guys :(
However, I have to tell you from experience, that getting another pet helps to heal, you will NOT be replacing her, but it does help to heal, specially if you take in another rescue... hope you have found a way to feel a little better.
 
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CinnamonGirl

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I took Cinnamon to the Vet's to be cremated today. (It's hard to even read it typed in here) We're getting the ashes back in the hope it'll ease our pain a little. Thanks to everyone for the kind words, it really helped a lot. RIP to our little Cinnamon, she was a sweetheart....

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I'm so sorry for your loss! I've never lost a leo but I lost one of my collared lizards a couple months ago and it was heart wrenching. I cried for a good bit after I found her (she had been crushed by a weighty cage decoration that I thought they couldn't get under, needless to say all the heavy things are out of the cage now) and it took me a little while to get over it. I still get sad when I look at her picture. So I understand how you're feeling :'( Hope the pain eases soon!
 

Elizabeth Freer

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I took Cinnamon to the Vet's to be cremated today. (It's hard to even read it typed in here) We're getting the ashes back in the hope it'll ease our pain a little. Thanks to everyone for the kind words, it really helped a lot. RIP to our little Cinnamon, she was a sweetheart....

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Just read your post about Cinnamon's cremation right now. Rest in peace sweethart Cinnamon. :cry:
 

Elizabeth Freer

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The other Leo is doing great! Nice tone, plump tail and quite the social personality. They were in separate tanks because the other Leo use to bully Cinnamon so we separated them.

They get crickets & mealworms get dusted with calcium (w/D3) and she always has calicum w/o D3 in the tank with them.

I removed the tank from the room over the weekend and continued to cry my eyes out! The last month when I was hand-feeding her she was so sweet! She loved to be stroked on her back and after feeding her (she didn't like the hand-feeding) I'd calm her down and tell her it's going to be ok. It makes it even harder because she was a rescue and I really thought she'd be ok. :'( I hope wherever she is she's ok and eating all the crickets & meal worms she can!

Yes I did. I was so distrought the day Cinnamon passed away...I did everything I could for her and thought she was looking better. I feel so bad I was unable to save her! I prayed for a "sign" that she was ok, wherever she was. A few seconds later we were driving to get crickets for the other leo and Neil Young was on the radio playing "Harvest Moon" and without a thought I told my son this is the same guy that sings "Cinnamon Girl". Wow...Cinnamon Girl!! Right at that moment, in a weird sort of way I took that as a sign that Cinnamon was saying just that...she's ok and thanks for trying to help her as much as she did. I never really thought much about pet heaven before but I was praying it's for real now.

I'm sure we'll get another leo but it's too soon. I can't bear to think about it let alone look at another tangerine.

Thanks for listening to me go on & on. :(

No problem at all.....

Nowadays it is not a good idea to keep any supplements in the enclosure including plain calcium. For more information, scroll through my Leo Care Sheet to posts #22 and #48 written by mod Hilde. Be sure to follow the link in post #48.

Can I ask what type substrate you have for your other leo?

Pet heaven...for sure. What a cool "sign" from Cinnamon about Harvest Moon and Neil Young! Thanks for sharing. Now there are tears in my eyes.
 
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